In the past two years ,so much have progressed and changed. I feel like I have grown so much as person and I am always striving to become better at least,better than yesterday.I try,even though some days fall short.I can say that in the past two years,I have been improving.I have been even if it's just the slightest bits. There is always room for improvements and it might seem selfish that I have pushed so many people away and started focusing on myself.I am fighting against all odds and I'm still fighting.So,forgive me for my selfishness if I pushed you away or if it seems like I am so far away now. I am in one way but at the same time I am not.
I have been progressively working out and making sure I stay healthy in a physical sense. It works but then some days it doesn't. I have gone past the point where even meeting new people doesn't hold my interest as much anymore because I know most of the people I encounter are temporary or they are just acquaintances. The only thing that holds me is the priorities which will always be my family,closest friends and of course,education. "Education is the key to unlock the golden door of freedom."
I don't care anything else at this point. I have relearned to count my blessings and appreciate the little things.I'm just going to keep going and someday,I will be thankful for this progress even if I still have a long way to go.
Reading ATM...
The Monk Who Sold His Ferrari - Robin Sharma. Worth every single page.This book is just amazing. I have always read Nicholas Sparks' books but this one is just as important to have.There are no mistakes in life,only lessons.There is no such negative experience,only opportunities to learn and grow.This is a book definitely worth reading once or twice.
To me, there is so much more to life than finding someone who will want you or being sad over someone who doesn't. There is a lot of wonderful time to be spent discovering yourself without hoping someone will fall in love with you along the way and it doesn't need to be painful or empty.You need to fill yourself with love,not anyone else.Become a whole being on your own.Do everything with love but don't romanticize life like you can't survive without it. Live for yourself and be happy on your own. It isn't any less beautiful,trust me.
"You don't need anyone's affection or approval in order to be good enough." If someone rejects or abandons or judges you, it isn't actually about you. It's about them and their own insecurities,limitations and needs and you don't have to internalize that. Your worth isn't contingent upon other people's acceptance of you. It's something inherent.
"You exist and therefore you matter." You are allowed to voice your thoughts and feelings and you are allowed to remove anyone from your life who makes you feel otherwise.
"Do something today that your future self will thank you for."
Have a nice day!
Loves,
ChingYee.
